If this summer had a theme it would be travel. If it had a tagline under that it would be anxiety! In my sons short life he has slept in over 13 places and been away (in total) for over a month of his life. We have packed, unpacked, repacked, repeat. Most of these trips I knew about well before I even had a bump and so they were always present in my mind. I spent a lot of nights laying awake after I would put him back down thinking about a hundred different scenarios of how things could go wrong. Most centered on him falling. Falling off of boats, balconies and cliffs specifically. At moments I found this all consuming. I talked to my doctor and his pediatrician and at one point was taking a homeopathic anxiety medicine. As our vacations got underway I decided that I would not let this get the best of me. I was determined to enjoy myself no matter how much I was freaking out on the inside. Though I definitely had my moments (a cable car in Santorini, Broadway at the Beach in Myrtle Beach) I found myself on the last night of our vacation on a crowded water bus in Venice. The bus was probably 200 people over its max limit and I had just been waiting on a floating dock with boats whizzing by, holding my baby. This was like the moments I had dreamt about and I felt fine. It was ok. Circumstances will always be beyond my control. If you just do the best you can, keep facing your fears and trust that God has a plan, it will be ok. Maybe not the way you think it will be ok but it will be ok. I say most of this point out that behind every beautiful picture we are all going through something. Maybe if we were all just a little more honest about our feelings, anxieties and thoughts the world would be a little kinder. Just some Wednesday morning thoughts. I hope everyone has a great day and conquers something, no matter how small. I'll leave you with some gorgeous pictures from breathtaking places :)
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Jen
8/10/2016 08:07:25 am
Thanks amber!! Hoping I can keep it going as long as you have!
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Nicole
8/10/2016 07:01:45 am
This comes from a place of vulnerability and truth. You are an inspiration and these posts will make a lasting impact on your life and so many others.
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Jen
8/10/2016 08:32:41 am
Thanks Nicole! Love you
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Rachel
8/10/2016 08:20:38 am
Jen I love this, as a FTM myself I am facing all the same anxiety being scared of everything!! I give you so much credit for taking your little guy on so many adventures.... You're an inspiration ❤️ We can do this!
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Jen
8/10/2016 03:26:39 pm
Thanks Rachel! It was definitely scary to go on so many adventures but you're right we can do it!! Things are even more scary now that Declan is moving so much too! He is into everything that he's not supposed to be...
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